Boo !

I miss me in my  leopard outfits and  being a party animal , drinking and partying all night long. 

Yeahh, beers, alcos :(

I also miss my feefee . 

He's in a mission now -.-

ps : i think he looks cute here. Just like a small kid :)

Heh.

Elvina leong, cheer up and chin up. You'll be alright throughout your life. dont waste it away by doing silly / stupid/things. You're just destroying yourself and your mind. Think positive and never neglect your own life. Succeed while you can :)

I believe u can do better. 

Apparently feefee thinks tht this is the best picture he have took.

Ya, thts me on my way home from Melaka.

Wine is gooooooood.

xoxo.

I wonder when i'm gonna start blogging since my connection is A-OKAY :) 

but yeah, there's always a BUT.

MY FRIGGING CAMERA IS ALL THE WAY IN MY UNCLE'S HOUSE @ SINGAPORE -.-

Gah, i think i can bang wall now. 

I miss it so much. I wonder when i can ever take it back. 

I have been doing plenty of things lately. And i can't even post any of my pictures 

Anyways,

Can't wait to meet feefee later !

I just love walking ever step with you. 

I will never intend to let you drown in your tears.

I'm left dead on the floor. 

Crying my heart out so badly.

My heart's ripped open and it can't beat no more. 

I don't know what to say or what to do. 

I'm aching and it's getting ugly. 

I'm on my bed, thinking what i can overcome this fear and this patronizing feeling inside. 

Telling myself whether i should walk away from this disaster or just stay and suffer. 

Sigh. 

I can't breathe, i can't talk, i can't smile, i can't laugh, i can't be myself anymore, i can't do anything cause all i have left is my broken heart. 

Why doesn't that person realise?

Why can't the person shed a tear? 

Is it because he/she is just to afraid to show his real feelings? 

 is this  a real world to live in?

I'm looking at myself and asking so many times whether i deserve to be alive. Cause i feel like dying. 

I feel like leaving everyone aside and leave the world. THIS NASTY UNFAIR WORLD. 

i really want to scream.

sos, where are you?

I'm hurt , deeply hurt. 

I really want to be the same Jessica.

TOO many problems in my life's occurring. That is what it is. 

All i wanna do now, is to die. 

i can't even stop crying. 

ohgod.

PS : 

I'm empty. I need you, i miss you, come to me and let me to tell you everything

to be continued....