I'm Jessica Ting.

I'm left dead on the floor. 

Crying my heart out so badly.

My heart's ripped open and it can't beat no more. 

I don't know what to say or what to do. 

I'm aching and it's getting ugly. 

I'm on my bed, thinking what i can overcome this fear and this patronizing feeling inside. 

Telling myself whether i should walk away from this disaster or just stay and suffer. 

Sigh. 

I can't breathe, i can't talk, i can't smile, i can't laugh, i can't be myself anymore, i can't do anything cause all i have left is my broken heart. 

Why doesn't that person realise?

Why can't the person shed a tear? 

Is it because he/she is just to afraid to show his real feelings? 

 is this  a real world to live in?

I'm looking at myself and asking so many times whether i deserve to be alive. Cause i feel like dying. 

I feel like leaving everyone aside and leave the world. THIS NASTY UNFAIR WORLD. 

i really want to scream.

sos, where are you?

I'm hurt , deeply hurt. 

I really want to be the same Jessica.

TOO many problems in my life's occurring. That is what it is. 

All i wanna do now, is to die. 

i can't even stop crying. 

ohgod.

PS : 

I'm empty. I need you, i miss you, come to me and let me to tell you everything

to be continued....